[DOMINICAN REPUBLIC thoughts from 12/4/16]
[I wrote this last year right after I came back, but I never shared it.
The ocean water was murky and muddy again the day that we left. It had rained the night before-poured, actually.
When it rains, the waters are stirred up and the runoffs carry dirt and mud back into the clear, blue ocean water.
It felt a lot like my heart.
I went into the trip excited, adventure-ready. I was excited to see what God was doing through the ministry we would be serving there and I was excited for Him to use me. But by the end of the trip, I just felt helpless.
There are so many hurting people literally doing anything to stay alive. So many hungry bellies and hungry hearts. So many girls being told they are only worth what others do to them. So many fatherless. So many Fatherless.
And now that the trip is over, I feel like I’m standing before an ocean of unknown, murky waters.
I’m unsure of what to do from here.
But God is reminding me in this time that:
One, He comes to us like the rain. (Hosea 6:3). He will pour down His mercy, grace and love over us in our times of questioning. He rains down on us when we seek Him and He allows our waters to be murky because it makes us look to Him. Rain is a sign of His faithfulness.
Two, that He makes us to walk on top of the murky waters. Sometimes it takes water for us to grab a little tighter to His hand and trust He will lead us over it.(Mark 6:48) Or through it. (Isaiah 43:2, Exodus 14)
And three, that His power is perfected in my weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9). I see this over and over again in my life. When I see my “murky waters,” or helpless weaknesses, His power overcomes me and fills me up. It is strong and it gives me a new capacity to love and to serve.
Water is a common theme in the Bible and God’s power was always mighty through it.
He will be mighty in me.
I hold on to this promise in every season–and in this new season as I prepare to go back to the Dominican Republic for three weeks.
Please pray for my team and me as we serve. Thank you.
GRACE + PEACE,